A lot of things have happened to me since I got back from vacation. Some were good, some were less so, but I tried my best to turn them all to my advantage. And among these numerous events, there is one, even greater than everything else : I passed my audition to enter the Conservatory‘s drama lessons. AND I SUCCEEDED !!!
You probably remember I posted an article some months ago about it. I’ve been thinking (and overthinking) about it for months, and the day finally came, on Wednesday 13th.
It was hard to find a good and original text to present, but I finally found and picked, by chance, « Le Menteur » by Jean Cocteau. (here’s the link to the site where I found it). I’ve been learning it for a month, repeating it in front of my mirror, refusing to play it in front of my parents and friends (don’t ask me why, I just don’t like it), filming myself when I was home alone – and deleting it right away because I felt ridiculous and stupid and awkward and I kept thinking it was bad and I wasn’t prepared and blablabla… And then the big day arrived, where I had to say it in front of the juries (two men) in a huge room, really different then my bedroom where I used to revise.
It was quite intimidating at first, but by the minute I started letting the words come out of my mouth, everything went perfectly, naturally, and the sensation was… awesome.
I mean, even though I was very VERY stressed (especially during the three hours I had to wait until my turn, as it was in alphabetical order and I was at the end of the list – thanks daddy for giving me a family name beginning with letter T 😦 ), and I almost gave up as the stress was eating me up, I actually really liked the experience, and didn’t regret it at all !
But then came the dreaded, feared, hated but fateful moment : the improvisation !!!!
Here was subject : the two juries were playing my parents, and I had to come and ask them for help because something terrible happened in the street. I had 30 seconds to prepare, and then, start.
Suddenly, I came up with an idea, that, I think, pleased them a lot. So I run towards them, screaming « come! come and help me! a woman just fainted! a man asked her something, she screamed and then fell on the ground!« . As the juries were supposed to interact with me, they said, in a very dramatic way « omg! what happened? tell us! what did the guy ask the poor woman?« . And that’s when I answered « I think he asked her to improvise something!« . They laughed very hard – I think they really weren’t expecting that, and they asked me, still theatrically « ooh! that’s horrible! but, do you think this is really serious? » which I answered them « honestly, in her place, if someone had asked me to improvise, I would’ve probably faint too.«
They really seemed to like my improv, which the fact that I succeeded confirmed. But something even more exciting proved me that I passed my audition well :
When I finished, the jury told me I would receive the results on Friday, and that, if I got accepted, the lesson would start next Wednesday, at 1:30 pm. That’s when I realized that, on Wednesday, I finish school at 2:30 pm, which made it impossible. I told them and they just said they would see what they can do.
So yesterday, I called the conservatory to know the results. I gave my name and the lady couldn’t find me on the list. I was very disappointed as I assumed I failed the test, and as I was about to hang up, the lady screamed « wait! wait! I was wrong! you are not on the list for the first year (the one I was auditioning for) but for the second year! ». That’s when I understood that, not only I succeeded the audition, but I was skipping a year, and I was directly going to the upper level…!!!!! (which is at 3:30 pm, so I am able to attend it)
It was a long and hard and stressful way to go through until this, but I realized that, even if I wanted to abandon several times, today nothing is worth the pleasure and the pride I feel right now.
Follow your dreams, and never give up when you encounter obstacles, because if you do, you will never know what would’ve happen if you hadn’t.